This Is My Story: Mary Dauer

When I was three years old, my father died of a heart attack. This left my mother with five children between the ages of three and thirteen.

It was very hard on all of us, especially my mother because she had to work full time as well as be our only parent. I was especially concerned about losing my mother; sometimes I would stare at her as she slept to make sure that she was breathing.

I hated growing up without my father and often wondered why God would allow that to happen. Because I lost my father, other relationships became very important to me. I was longing to have significant, lasting relationships but was often disappointed because of the unrealistic expectations I would place on people.  I really felt a void in my life, but did not understand why I felt it.

As a child I found myself often thinking about God and longing to know Him.

I did not understand the importance of asking for forgiveness of my sin in order to have a close, personal relationship with Him. I didn’t know that the Bible says in Isaiah 59:2 “But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid His face from you, that he will not hear,” so I tried to get close to Him in other ways.  I attended religious retreats and seminars hoping to earn His favor. At one point, I seriously considered giving my life to Him in religious service. I had a desire for God, but no knowledge of the true way to find Him.

High School

When I was in high school, I had two friends who began to tell me about salvation through faith in Jesus Christ and my need to humble myself before Him by confessing my sins to Him. They told me that I could not earn His favor. God had to judge my sin, for the Bible says that “the wages of sin is death.”(Romans 6:23) This created a problem for me because in my mind I was a “good little girl” and did not see myself as a sinner on my way to hell. I had not heard the fact that “all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God”(Romans 3:23). When I heard this truth, my pride kept me from accepting true salvation because I did not like the idea of being a sinner. I viewed myself as a very well behaved person who tried to be a good daughter, sister, student, and friend.

My friends kept talking to me about salvation and often confronted me about my need to confess my sin to the Lord. I would get very angry at them because I did not want to hear the truth about who God really was and how my sin affected my relationship with Him. I also did not understand that this was the significant relationship that I had always longed for but had never understood.  My friends were very faithful to talk to me about Christ because they really loved me and wanted me to know the truth even though it was hindering our friendship.

My first service did go well…

They also began inviting me to church. I always made up excuses about why I could not go. I finally agreed to go so that they would stop “bugging” me. My first service did not go well because I was very convicted about my sin. Since I had felt so uneasy, I decided I would not go back again. The Lord continued to use my friends to reveal truth to me. I knew that God was drawing me to Himself, but I did not want to come to Him His way. Jeremiah 31:3 says “The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved you with an everlasting love: therefore with loving kindness have I drawn you.” I could sense that drawing and His great love for me.

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Finally, one day, I surrendered to the truth and decided to believe what God had revealed to me. I knew, even though I didn’t like it, that I was a sinner and needed to confess my sin to my Creator who knew all about me. Romans 10:9 says, “That if you shall confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus, and shall believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.” Now I know that I have been forgiven. The reason that God can forgive sinners is that His Son Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins and rose again. I had to personally trust Jesus’ work as my only way to heaven.

Now I understand the words of the song “Satisified” which say

“Hallelujah! I have found Him Whom my soul so long has craved!

Jesus satisfies my longings, through His blood I now am saved!”

I am saved from hell, and I have eternal life.

Now that I truly know Him as my personal Savior, I believe I have found not only what I was seeking but also the greatest treasure that exists!  Psalm 16:11 says, “You will show me the path of life: in Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand there are pleasures for evermore.” I have Someone to guide me through life, Someone who gives me complete joy, and Someone who gives me unending pleasure. And guess what else I have!  A Heavenly Father who loves me with an everlasting love. I have found the One whom I was craving. My longings are satisfied!  I have found the greatest treasure!

Are you searching for truth and significance? Do you truly want to know God? Is He drawing you to Himself? God longs for you to find Him so that you can have the greatest treasure!

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